Yes, three years have passed (Three?? And only three???), and this blog is still in existence. And I have to say I’m at more of a loss than ever to quantify or explain it.
This clearly isn’t a lifestyle blog. Unless that lifestyle is living paycheck to paycheck in the most expensive area in the country.
It isn’t really about politics although I’ve certainly ranted a fair amount.
It’s not just about updating my family, although that’s a large part of it.
And until recently it wasn’t even about highlighting my fiction.
I think if this blog is about anything it’s about the power of words to connect. Across distances, across time, across barriers of any kind. The best responses I’ve gotten have been from people saying that I managed to capture something they had been feeling, and that, consequently, they didn’t feel so alone.
That’s what this blog is about. To let you know that however desperate or depressed or poor or lonely or bitter or angry or tired you are feeling, you are not alone.
You are capable of great things, even if you struggle to believe that right now.
Friends, I’ve been down. I’ve been to depths where I thought I wouldn’t survive to twenty or twenty-one or twenty-two. There were days, months, years, when I thought I couldn’t continue, couldn’t take one more kick in the teeth. But I could, and I did.
When I was seventeen, I flew on an airplane for the first time in my life. I got on board, buckled in and watched as the sun rose above the Atlantic. And I cried.
Because a few weeks earlier I had tried to kill myself. And I believed that I would die without having ever been on a plane.
But we survive.
We survive even when we don’t want to. We survive even when we think, we know, it is impossible. Because stronger than the voice telling us that we are weak and useless, is the voice telling us we are beautiful, fragile, imperfect and wonderful.
We are human and therefore capable of change. We are human and therefore capable of growth. We are human and therefore capable of love in the face of adversity.
We are human. And I love you.
We are human. And you are not alone.
Happy 3rd birthday, blog.