I am gender nonconforming. I tried writing this blogpost over and over again in different ways, starting with different stories, taking different tones, but in the end I just needed to say it. I have never felt the categories of "male" or "female" fully encapsulated who I am. As a child, I idolized Amelia Earhart, … Continue reading Stay Alive
Life Updates
Life Update: August 2018 Edition
Hey kids and kittens! It's been half a minute since I wrote something on here, so let's dust it off and see what we've got. What a year, friends, and it isn't even over yet! In the last few months since returning from Europe, I moved apartments, started a new job, and then another new … Continue reading Life Update: August 2018 Edition
Coming Home
As of today, June 9, 2018, I have been back in Oakland for exactly one month. Understandably, many of my acquaintances believe I am still on my European quest, and in a way, they aren't entirely wrong. It feels dramatic to say that a three-week trip changed my life, dramatic, but accurate. I've always sought … Continue reading Coming Home
Writing Under Capitalism
I have recently been reading "The View From Flyover Country" (Thanks, Pads!), and it reiterating and deepening my understanding of many issues. Primarily for me, the impossibility of writing under capitalism. Writing is communication. When writing is honest, it is an expression of soul, or if you prefer, an expression of the inner workings of … Continue reading Writing Under Capitalism
And Beyond
It's been a hectic two weeks. Two weeks since I doused myself in the shower at midnight. Two weeks since I declared once again that my life is my life is my life and at the end of it the only person I have to answer to is myself. So, in the intervening two weeks, … Continue reading And Beyond
The Blog at Three
Yes, three years have passed (Three?? And only three???), and this blog is still in existence. And I have to say I'm at more of a loss than ever to quantify or explain it. This clearly isn't a lifestyle blog. Unless that lifestyle is living paycheck to paycheck in the most expensive area in the … Continue reading The Blog at Three
Things Taken, Things Found
It's been a couple of weeks now since two young men jumped out of an unmarked SUV to relieve me of my purse and backpack. Since this event, I've been thinking about it quite a lot and from quite a few angles. I think about the physicality of it all. The physical objects taken: a … Continue reading Things Taken, Things Found
On Being Human and Eating Doughnuts
People frequently ask me why I do things. "Why are you cutting off all your hair?" "Why are you moving to California?" "Why are you biting my leg?" And quite frequently my response is "I don't know. It just seemed like the thing to do." As a survivor of multiple suicide attempts, I've come to … Continue reading On Being Human and Eating Doughnuts
I Am 23 Going on 24
Sung to the tune of "The Sound of Music", of course. I know I just wrote a post, and now I'm posting again, but that's kind of what I do. And maybe someday someone will pay me to do it if I come up with a fancy job title. Laura A. Freymiller: Psychiatrist for the … Continue reading I Am 23 Going on 24
I Can’t Sleep
It's been a rough year. Again. They all seem to be pretty rough recently. This year, I was in and out of an emotionally abusive friendship/ex-relationship. Found out one of my exes had sexually assaulted multiple people. Was groped while wearing an Easter Bunny costume. And remember that time when Donald Trump became president? I'm … Continue reading I Can’t Sleep
